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Name: Car
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Pittsburgh
Birthday: 6/25/1991
Gender: Female


Interests: Music (emo, rock, some metal), Hanging out with my friends, snowboarding, shopping, tanning, laying on the ground, looking into the stars, the moon, planets, watching the Real World and LB, mellophone, marching band, french horn, make-up, black eye liner, green eyeshadow, photography, my digital camera, AIM, dyeing my hair, phone, writing, thunderstorms, concerts, perfume, clear, neon, or black nailpolish, Paris. France, glitter, quotes, sad songs, sunsets, the beach, candy, shoelaces, html, the city, traveling, studded belts, hats/beanies, pins, qursive writing, dancing when no ones watching, kissing, holding hands, tim burrton films, throwing popcorn, neon colors, holidays, coloring books, first kisses, 3am phone calls, summer nights, bows and ribbions, band tees, plastic rings, vintage stuff, flowers, forgien items, blueberry candy canes, dinosaurs, pepsi//
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Saturday, March 11, 2006

so i dont use this much anymore

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Thursday, January 05, 2006


<|3 Shutting down my xanga...
I might up date now or then

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Wednesday, January 04, 2006



Let me first explain the post for below...
It was that I relized something. Something that I couldn't live with. It hurts to live with. Realizing that I am possibly hurting someone. Which I am... & I could never forgive myself for. The last few days have been hard for me. And I've been really stressed. Way more than usual. & about how Im scared to face the truth. If I even know what the truth is. But after a long day of thinking... I <s>think</s>, No. I know that I am doing the right thing. Or at least I hope// But the worst part of all is that I let myself down. And Im ashamed of that. But what Im doing isn't right. And I think I'm strong enough to fix it. I've been lying to myself this entire time. & I've finnaly noticed.

Anyways... I'll update more on that later


The last few days have been okayy. Other than I've been disappointed in myself. Writing, music, phone. That basically is all I've done Boring... wow.

<3 Car

edits;;

Well... I explained to him what was wrong. He's upset and I've never felt this awful. And all I can say is I'm truely sorry...


Sunday, January 01, 2006



Everyday... I watch my world spin. I do nothing about it. I care so much. But I can't do anything. I'm not who I use to be & I'm not who I want be. I've lost my strength. Day after day I act like nothing is wrong. I feed lies to make you believe that I'm fine. Now, I can speak the truth. I'm not okay... I've never been okay. 

I'm
weak
worthless
pathetic
hopeless
terrified
insecure

I live a life of what you wanta call "fake smiles". But that's the only way I can manage. My insecurity is insane. I feel I don't belong... & without some of you I don't think I could survive this. Your not the only thing keeping me living. Your the only thing keeping me alive.

The truth I can't hide anymore...
I've lost my place

Car


Saturday, December 31, 2005


Alright... the castle above. Its so pretty... and I'm jealous of the person that lives there. Sometimes I dream that I lived in a castle. So close to the sky and the stars. Who wouldn't want a life like that. Looking out tinted windows. Your so close to the stars but so far away from everything else. It's your own place. Eh, im a hopeless romantic... it sucks so bad...

<33 Car



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